Matt - its been a really hard time lately. Had lunch with your mom last week - went to Seaside - anything to try to cope with what is happening inside me. I am missing you like crazy and seems like the reality of losing you is hitting me - over 2 years and Im hitting a brick wall and falling into a billion pieces. I love you so much - even today. Answers...wish I had them - look out for me - if there is anything good I ever did - please look out for me. I love you.